Build

I just had an epiphany.

Most of my friends know that I am walking through a crazy little season of unknown. There is a whole lot of dual significance going on right now!!! But I’ll spare you that analysis. As a struggle to be content, joyful, excited, peaceful and rest during this new season of life, I have been constantly reminding myself to “Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10. I have a hard time resting and when I am “resting”, I usually struggle to enjoy it.

After a rough day yesterday, I woke up this morning to sit before the Lord and wrestle through this. I decided to look back at my journal from about 3 months ago to refocus my dreams for this season, and BAM!…there it was! One of the verses God showed me during that decision making season was Psalm 127:1 “Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain.” Great verse, but it honestly did not have a lot of significance to what I was processing at the time but was a reminder to me that He was in control. I believe now, he showed that to me then, because he knew I would look in my journal today. God is so cool.

The LBD Dual Significance: I’m still trying to build. Ergh! As much as I am striving to just be still, I still have this feeling inside that I have to come up with this great plan for this next phase of life. And every time I try and build, the Lord taps me on the shoulder, wipes it away, and reminds me to be still. So, my new prayer is “Build Lord Jesus, Build! And give me the patience to honor you in my rest and trust of your creation!”